Hmmmm!

Its pretty clear that we are definatly different! Without a Dought!

Yet Im pretty sure it was a man who invented the Toilet Paper Holder!

Why did he bother if they dont actually really care where the toilet roll ends up??

A while ago I wrote this and things have not seemed to change at Home! Its actually makig me feel like I could write a novel and the title would be "where is the toilet roll now"...

Lets see where next it will go!

Men...

Momy

Tullula is so funny!

In the mornings she wakes up before me;  she sings in bed!
I love to hear her, and so very often wish I has the camera just then and could record her!
But where she is being funny about is the way she then calles me once she is ready to get out of bed!!!
"MOMY" is what she calles me most, but then she goes "MOMY YA" all in one..Or "MAMAN"
and "MOMYLIA"  and this morning it was "MAMINE" as if she had cutsie names for me!
I dont even do that with her name, so I wonder where she gets it from???
I must say, I do sometimes sing her a song where I go "Tullula la la la, Tu tu tu tu, Lu lu lu lu, Tullula" and just event it as i go along just with two sylables from her name! Could she then realise that she too can do that with "momy"?? I wonder...

 

Mainly Music

Friday Morning.
We attend our local Mainly Music group. There really are some wonderfull poeple, giving so much of their time and energy into doing thease events for us all to enjoy with out children.
We have been attending on and off for about a year and a half now! Tullula still sits on my lap, does very little and is quite expressionless...I danca about, sing the songs and probably make a fool of myself as I have noticed that most poeple are quite shy and reserved in their moves!
This morning I noticed one of the Voluntears smile as she saw me predifn laughing as that was the song!
Yes I was over doing it! But Im sure she loved it!
She makes le laught that Lady, when ever two mother get caught up in conversation, she is not afraid to say in the Microphone "Excuse me; Excuse me; Excuse me, we are here to be with out children" So many times has she done something like that to talkative mother during the session! I smile, but she is right, surly we can give 30min of our time only to our children and wait that time for after, and catch up with a cup of tea and nice sandwishes they have made for us!!!
Well, thats not me!
I am too busy sing and doing the actions to talk to anyone, and anyway I dont have anyone to talk to!
I dont consider myself unsocialble, but its true that is is hard to meet poeple, make/build friendships!
Evenmore so being a forigner...What do I talk about??
I have not been in Australia Long enough to know things, to have things in common with poeple!
Yes, after 2 years I still feel left out! Hard...
So this morning, all I felt like doing was crying. But I helf those tears in...and left as soon as the session was over! I had to get out of there...
I went straight to the Community Health Center, I knew I needed to talk to someone and NOW!
I think I must come to terms with the fact that maybe I still am suffering from Post Natal Depression. Maybe I was right when I thought that that was all over fast. Maybe its NOT over!
Now I know that maybe at this stage its no longer "called" Post Natal Depression, but just plain depression. Who knows? All I know is that the sadness I fet this moring was all relaited to watching all those mothers at Mainly Music....So surly my depression is relaited to something baby!!!
I know that I am in a stiky hole and that my our life here is a what we hoped and I we are aware of the negative factors of it all...So I guess all that needs to be done is change that!
Right?
We all know that sometimes in life things are easyer said that done!
We sall see...
 

TuesDay TulluLa

Thé (tea) Time with Milk!

It had to happen...

Ten on Ten-Day at the Zoo!

 7am...Tullula, Teddy, Louison and I play with the Tea Set.

 8am... Our turn to have Breakfast. And the Tea set is realy used!

 9am... We are at the Zoo. Frist and last one there!

 10am... A stroll through the Bird enclosure.

 11am... Time to feed the Elephants!

 12pm... The big event; Crocodile Show.

1pm... We hand out for a while with the Kankaroo's.

 2pm... Kanesha is present.

4pm...And simple ropes are all that is needed to entertain children!

Do join in the fun with the "Ten on Ten"...

One photo to be taken on the hour every hour for ten hours..

Go to A little bit of sunshine Blog to read all about the project!

For Tullula's Birthday we got her a little Tea Set!
It is her first one, but right away she knew what to do!
Children are amazing that way!
And from play it became the real thing, well is her world! As when I come home from work I like to have a cup of tea, and I tell her Im making myself one! She now want one too, so I made her a hot lemmon juice and her she was wathing a DVD and sipping on her cup like a true little English girl, thumb in the air!

I could film her all day long, she cracks me up!

So, what has happened?

So what has been going on in the past month?
Over New Year's we went down to Mullaway Beach, camping with Stephen siblings and mother!
Then we had to be back on the 3rd as I had work. School Holodays means lots of Tourists in Town, and thus very busy at work and extra work for me as some have also taken a few days off here and there!
 Im a Massage Therapist, so we work all sorts of days!
Then I felt unwell, another one of my episodes; I wonder if its just plain depression or if its some of my post natal depression that lingers or just the plain fact that I miss my family and friends that are so so far away!!!
I needed a breack from it all, but what do you do that when you have work to go to,  and a child to take care off?
I can be a very solitary person, so the next best thing was Stephen that went away for 10 days! Volontiering on a sail ship, doing a trip from Sydney to Brisbane!
I could not be more pleased, home alone, OK,still with Tullula, but peased to sort my mind out, time to miss him and renew my Love, for us...
Then Tullula turned 2! How has this happened? My little baby is becoming a little girl faster that I can blink, and I feel like I am missing out on so much of it! I feel horrible, but yet I dont have much choice, i still go to school and have to work to pay for my life!!! Hmm, allmost sounds like I have a great one, but trust me, its not fancy nor much when one does not live on credit!
I also have been working more that I can, doing two jobs in one day, at the same time, setting up my market stall, rushing off to the spa to massage  a few people and back to the market to pack up! Yes, I am crazy!!!
But I have a family to feed! Stephen is struggling to find work...
So, yes I have been very busy and as you can see I can be excused for not finding the energy to then write a blog, about what? My Crazy Life! No fun!!!
So, now I better get to bed and wish you all a wonderfull everning!
one word; perserverance!

Where Have I been?

I often think that I will just catch up with time and my absence will just be unnoticed!
Im not sure if that can actually be true today!
I have been absent and thats a fact!!!
Its actually never easy to re-start something,  once you stop for a little while!
Just like running, I was doing great, going once a week and able to run further and further!
But that too I have not done for a while, and Im sure I shall have to start from the beggining again!
My oh My...Its going to be hard! Just like this blog, I got soo into it, so into spending hours on the computeur eating up all my time! Trying to find something, maybe doing it for the wrong reasons! Who knows...We went away and then when we got back I was just disconected from the web, from so many things actually!
Its time to get back into it, but I sometimes feel like I dont know where to start...
But what I just have to do, is do it!!!!