To go or Not!

If anyone would of asked me last year if I wanted to go back to France for a visit, I would of just gotten on the next flight and said "YES, YES YES"...But after a lot of tears and reasoning we decided it would be best if I went this year!
So naturally as 2013 crept in and moved along at its usual fast pace, the question was asked again.
But this time the answer was harder to find, to feel...Uncertainty had crept in, and the "need" had somehow left...

I have made many irrational decisions in my life, and mostly regretted them once I was left with no more money...So this time I did not want to do it again! Its great to live in Australia, but the distance means that its expensive to go anywhere in the world, ok maybe not so much to go to Asia!
But Europe...Its at least a 25hrs flight and even if Tullula only pays 75% of the Ticket, realty is that its only about $200 cheaper than my ticket, really not much not enough for it to be really noticed in the end!
So I needed to be sure I wanted to go, now this year...Cause I really wont be able to go there every year, not even every 2 years I am afraid!!

Then I started realising that I did want to go, but that I wanted to go somewhere new, exotic...I wanted to travel...Not go back to a place I already knew...And naturally I looked at tickets to Thailand, Cambodia, Mexico...Then I truly felt a hint of excitement and want!
But I just cant drop it all and do that...I have to go and visit my mother, my sister and I also have two girl friends that are having baby's!!
One has to make scarifies to keep friendships alive!

I only knew that I really wanted to go, when I kinds realised that I actually did not have enough savings to do so! And sort of came to the conclusion that I would not be going at all!!
I knew I wanted to go when I got really upset of the thought that i was not going...

So I made up my mind, and bought a ticket for myself and Tullula!
At this stage we can't afford for Stephen to come as well.
As for savings, well I have started a second job, so for the next few months I will just have to work hard and save, save, save...

And the thought of being in Paris once more, warms my heart, as after all; it is the City I Love most!